_call it Philophobia;

Monday, January 16, 2006

ok. wadeva. here i come again. damn. today very stress. mr asmadi asked us to stay back for malay till 5..my malay suck big time! thats the disadvantage of talking in eng always!! den have to go for band for a short while. haiz. today.. i really expect the unexpected.. lotzza things happened. i mean.. i didnt realize it all along. it's juz there since ages ago. and.. now.. i realized that the things that i least expected to happen did happen. WTH. i had enuff lah. wadeva s*** things gonna happen tmr, or the day after or wadeva, i dun give a damn. all i culd think is my studies. im like wondering.. why things happen right b4 my eyes today? argh. bulls***. haiz. WTH. got lotzza hmwrk.. lotzza test going on.. wad a pity. i dun even knw today is my best frend's bdae. and. WTH. she's so pissed off becoz of that?! and i called it best frends? WTH. this is total madness man! wad does she want from me? a big present for a big bdae gal, when im busy coping with my studies, trying to find time of my own, and alwyas rushing for deadlines? freak man. i neva get so fed-up like this b4.. as in.. damn! she's so self-centered. she changed alot. den summore brag abt her bf.. i mean. duh. so wad? her bf a guy hu plays the saxaphone?! she brag abt it all day long.. and all nite on the phone. never once i hurt her feelings to shut her off or sumthing. but oh my. its been countless times she pissed me off! seriously.. im so angry and sad becoz of her. i really cant believe it. she even say that im so studious till i dun have time for b.g.r and stuffs. im like. "hello?! u talking to me? i know what im doing. i knw when is the rite time!" but again, nth came out frm my mouth. as usual, i told myself to relax. haiz. maybe its true. wendy say tat i gave in alot in frendships. however, if i dun, hu will? but seriously, i dun mind losing a best frend. cause i knw.. there are millions of frends waiting for me. i knw...

-* that gal__fifahh

-& i leave you @ 20:22 :)