_call it Philophobia;

Friday, October 06, 2006

Well. everything seems normal. but it isnt. i dunno why these few days my mood kinda very sucky. i think im all stressed up due to Os. i've alrd decided. im gonna put aside everything. be it gerald. or wadeva craps. i dunno. i find that everything is getting messy as time passes by. i think i get confused my feelings with the truth. yea yea. graduation ceremony will be on next fri. but wth. the stupid Os coming nearer each day. i find that my life is not normal. i dunno y. bleah. i really dunno. sumtimes i wuld juz shut myself up and study and.. juz me and the books. i dunno whether thats normal. coz.. u see.. when i say i shut myself up, i really mean it. i get irritated easily when sum1 disturbs me studying. or wadeva. fine. maybe it's small problem. but.. i dunno whether that big problem comes from gerald himself. yea yea. i knw. everything looked normal from the outside. but.. i find that..i simply cant get things sorted out. i dunno wad is the problem. but.. i find that he's not the guy that i knew from the start. seriously. well.. gerald.. if u;re reading this, i knw u may not get wad i meant. but.. hey. i'll be back to start afresh after Os. Till then, keep me close to u. Coz.. i may go away silently if u dun.

Accidentally in Love?
Yeah. It was.
But now.. i dunno.
HELP.

-& i leave you @ 09:41 :)