_call it Philophobia;

Thursday, July 26, 2007

The train came. Kids ran along. Adults waiting patiently. I saw benches. I sat. Announcement heard. Countless lights. Cold. Couples hugging. Doors opened. Doors closed. & the train went. GONE. I was wondering something. Wad was i waiting for? The train, or u? i tried my best to move on and got back together. & now, u're gone, AGAIN. maybe there IS/WAS something wrong between us. was it the way i re-acted or the way he spoke to me? everything is in a mess now. i dunno wad i should do. this is the second time he RAISED his VOICE at me. goodness gracious. everything seems wrong. simply wrong. i dunno wads wrong. argh. i hate this feeling. but it's okay. i told myself to be strong. & be a good gal. i guess, thats fate.

papa, im sorry. :( i told u the other day that we patch things up. but.. everyhing went wrong again. i dun wanna talk abt it. when im ready, den i tell u.

daughter, i need u now. :( or maybe, as soon as possible. im going to sch tmr and everything will be OKAY. i hope.

so, eventually after everything ended just that afternoon, i met aqidah and poured my heart out. i cant keep it in me any longer. so.. she brightened the rest of my day and yeah. i do need a brand new start. let people say wadeva they want to. all i knw, i'll be happy. even though... there goes my love.

a hug will do, sometimes.

best frends forever (bff)!!

reunion.

reflection.

dun jealous..

in the end.. i made up my mind. i want to have a fresh start. i want my life back to normal. knw wad? at least i got my family members and close frends hu could brighten up my day. or at least, make me smile once again.

Dear God, I cherished all the people around me and I thank You for everything that You gave. Forgive all my sins and bring me close to You each day. Amin. (:

-& i leave you @ 22:36 :)